Current mood:

cynical

something i shoud know
you think i would have figured out by now nothing good is going to happen to me...sure i didnt do horrible on my report card...but religion wasnt good...but yeah i always try to think positive but i always ended up get fucked...and the only person who really talks to me is jose...william is kinda there but not really...diane is always there but we have our away times cause we are so busy...and i dont really talks to girls from school out side of school...but yeah...on thanksgiving my grandma pissed off my dad and my day tought the door was wood and he punched it(not hard intending to put his hand though it) but he broke the whole window...and he scared the crap out of my cousins and the foreign exchanged student that is living with my cousins...(my cousins ask my uncle for a dog and he said no and got them a foreign exchanged student instead)...i think that is kinda crazy...and i feel so bad for him...he picked the wrong family to come stay with...he prolly shit a brick when my dad punched the door...he is scary...but yeah...we left as soon as we could...its not like i wanted to be there my family hates me...they all talk about me and my cousins tell them stories and shit...but yeah...i feel like their stares are going to cut though me like a knife...and i know they are talking about me in their heads and when i leave...my grandma has balls and says it to my face...but i dont need that shit i get enough of it at school...but yeah this weekend i spent with mainly jose...and william came to hang out one day...but today i went to the mall with jose and his dad...i am scared of his dad...he is always pissed...but today atleast i got him to laugh...wen supposedly went to get him a tie...but he didnt find the kind he wanted...and he got himself a belt...he got a present for joses momn and his friend...yet he couldent give jose $2...he was pulling money out of his ass for him self though...oh well...but i gotta go do some homework before justin comes looking to used the computer again bye bye